Where is KC Where is KC...HERE I AM! HERE I AM!

Yay! I am done being so busy that I cant breathe! Life is good again! BAD thing is I just decided to take a nap and it turned into a LONG sleep. Now it is midnight and I am wide awake and everything I would want to do I can anyways, it is too late. So I am literally without anything to do and it feels AMAZING!!

Today I am happy that I have good friends in my life that make me remember Im still alive. That there is so much to look forward to and that I need to relax sometimes :) I seem to forget that quite a bit.

So my brother moved today. Its a relief (he lived 2 doors down) and Im sad at the same time because it was nice to have someone so close. But I will enjoy having somewhere to go and having to leave my apt every once in awhile. Everyone I know has bought or is buying a house. Seriously ALL of my friends. Its funny. Im happy just living in my one bedroom apartment, for now at least. Untill I end up with someone else sharing it with me, then I might feel how small it really is, haha.

Ok, Im going to go read a book. I dont really know whatelse I can do!

One minute

Could it be that I actually have ONE minute to spare?? Actually it might even be FIVE!! WHOA!! I have been busy busy busy, but Im thinking I did well on exams, so it has been worth it. I miss my blog :( And everyone else's blogs : ( Im going to have to fit this into my schedule again, pull out the scheduler and set up "blogtime"!!

I have been busy with school and family. Helping my brother with his condo, sister with her job search. And of course fitting A in there too. Its been hectic. I havent been feeling good, so that doesnt help. But such is life!

I was thinking that I should put a disclaimer in here saying that I will not be posting daily, most likely every other day, until I get caught up with life. But it has been hard to find the time to even bathe...(kidding, im clean, I promise)

I watched the movie Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow...so good. Ok..gotta go...AGAIN

MIA

Yes, I have been once again Missing in Action...but I have good reason this time!! I have exams right now and that is pretty important and has tied up most of my free time. I would love to be able to keep up on here AND study, but im not special that way, haha.

So, whats new you ask? Nothing, absolutely nothing. Only interesting thing is that its Greg's birthday tonight (good friend) and there is a HUGE party and I am going to do my best not to drink. I kind of gave it up after a bad situation on New Years. And I havent put myself in a situation since. But I guess we will see.

Ok, no time!! Im late! Im late! For a very important date!

life in a nutshell is peachy

Yes, I live in a nutshell, you didnt know this...did you??? Hehee...well, I do. And it isnt so bad lately. I cant seem to get the motivation to do some of the things I really want to be doing right now..that worries me a little. But all in all Im good.

I was writing again...thought I would post something..see what you think..

Drops of courage sprouting
Stems of faith
Blown towards my sky
Uplifting
Powerful facades imposed
I am merely a girl
Passion erupting
Tangled webs of lust and need
I am merely a girl
Drinking from the seas of wanting
Of needing more
I am hungry for you
For the touch of your lips to mine
I am desperate to breathe you
To taste you
To feel you.
I am merely a girl
Drifting in and out of need
Waiting to be devoured.

Not sure what I think of it...if Iwere to objectively read it I would say I must be sex starved..lol


Quote of the day: "The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one other person."
Vi Putnam

What would make my day!

What would make my day this Valentines Day is a kiss. Maybe some flowers, DEFINATELY not roses..(they are depressing...they die the next day) Maybe some daisies or tulips or some daffodils. I'd be happy with just the kiss though. Maybe a sweet love poem or something too..

I sent one card and got one card. The card that I got was more of a letter. It was "homemade" the very best way for a card to be :) And it was the best Valentines Day gift Ive ever received.

Last Valentines Day was tough, because of the death of someone really close to me. The year before, my grandmother passed away. This year makes up for the last two bad years though. Im very content and happy with my life right now! Actually, not even content, more like ecstatic with my life. I dont know that it could be going much better than it is.

I have to agree with blue2go...I just adore my blogging family too! Happy heart day to everyone! You all make each day a little brighter! I wish the best day for everyone! My quote of the day will be a love poem of the day instead today, in honor of Cupid himself!!

You Are Poetry

You come outside

To view the faint sunset

Light bewildered by trees

Shines through quietly

You glide your soft auburn hair

Perched behind your ear

And in this moment I feel at home

Beneath the interior

You are my humble abode...

Your company is soothing

Calming and reassuring

Inside, the wind chimes ring

You saunter and my hearts sings

Bit by bit I begin to recognize

The enchanting glow in your subtle eyes

Hidden in all abstract paintings

It’s you; what all artists see

You are poetry...

- Cody Graham -

Well that was fun.

Hehee.. That was fun to have my gigantic eye staring people down right away...but it is scaring even me now, so I must post again to move it down a bit.

Last night I helped my brother paint his new condo, super high ceilings..and my back is killing me. We painted it yellow with silver accents, (light switches, outlets, door handles) It looks so very cool.

I have had coffee all morning and Im a bit hyper, so Im going to help him rip up some carpeting to release some energy. I dont really want to ( if im going to be honest) but what are sisters for I guess! haha.

I suppose that is all I have to say today...not much going on in my head today, Im sure there will be later though.

"...Im watching you!!"

Sad sad...

I am sad sad to be spending a beautiful Saturday morning doing schoolwork....such is my life. I THANKFULLY have coffee though..to keep me motivated!

So this morning I was awoken by the phone ringing...apparently someone totaled my brothers car during the night. Shitty luck. Yesterday he signed papers for his new condo. He was so excited and pumped. He went out and spent about 15000 dollars on flooring and such. Now this, I feel horrible for him. I dont feel my life is so bad today, haha.

I have to get back to homework. BLAH. And coffee...YAY!

Quote of the day: "The brain is a wonderful organ; it starts working the moment you get up in the morning and does not stop until you get into the office." Robert Frost

Confession:

I have to confess, I really do like my new cellphone. I never NEVER thought I would say that, but I cannot lie. It is just soooo convienient and practical. I love it. Yes, I said it, I love my new cellphone. ( can someone shoot me please?)

So I went a little crazy last night and bought some more plants. I already have about 20 in my one bedroom apartment, but I just love them. They make it so cozy. And I must say I have a rather green thumb. I have a few that are about 8 years old. Happy happy little plants.

Snowing .... AGAIN

I cant wait for summer. I am so so sick of this snow!!!! BRRRRRR!! At least it gives me the excuse to not leave my house or get out of my pjs, thats kind of fun!

So... I bought Hiro ( my kitty) a silver shiny collar with a bell on it. Do you think this in any possible way will alter his sense of masculinity? I worry about that, being a single mumma of a male cat... Do you think when I dress him in that little frilly number he will get confused? Hmmm.. I guess maybe I should rethink that one.

I brush his hair all the time too. Thats just because he has long hair and anyone with a cat with long hair will tell you that you HAVE to brush him or he will get poop stuck in his fur!! I dont want him licking that off and then coming up to me licking my hand...so I brush him constantly. They also have these things called pet wipes. They seriously look like a small refill package of baby wipes. Except they are for cats, you wash them down with them and they smell like baby powder.

Speaking of which, time to go give Hiro a bath.

Quote of the day: "..but I just found someone special and thats really something special, if you knew me, nice to meet you..anyway..." Gavin DeGraw

Spelling

Yes, I spelled Friends wrong. I kept it up there just for fun to see how many people would mention it, no one did. (Thank you, you are all too kind) . So the cats name is Hiro. (Hero) He is also slightly retarded. Its ok, I like him anyways, but he falls alot. You know how cats are supposed to be really coordinated? Well Hiro is very UN-coordinated. He falls off of chairs, my bed, my lap. I got him toys and he plays with them, but its funny, he goes to jump at them and misses them entirely. Hopefully its just that he is a kitten and just not quite used to the world yet. Thank you for the suggestions on names, by the way, especially CAT, that was so creative and unusual I was SOOOO tempted to use it. And of course Buster was quite an interesting choice also..it was hard to decide.

I used some red shampoo on my reddish with blonde hair, and now I have pink highlights in my hair. It is quite interesting, however I feel kind of like a Strawberry Shortcake doll. I wonder if you smell my hair if I will smell like half plastic half strawberry? Hmmm.. Ill have to try that later.

I want to put a picture on my blog, can anyone help me out? I dont know how...like in the profile part. Or at the top in the sidebar where it has my profile....If anyone knows how let me know!! I cant figure it out.

I bought a new cd, Gavin DeGraw...there was a song on the radio, sounded alot like the Black Crows, and it was ok, so I got the cd, and the cd is THANKFULLY not like that song at all!! It is really really good!! Also got Keane, very good as well. I dont know if I have ever gone into much detail about how much I love music. It is a big passion for me. I havent been getting too many new cd's lately. So its time to go shopping again! I have to go get lightbulbs, which means about 75 dollars worth of usesless things will accumulate in my cart, so I might as well look for some cd's also.

So I am a non-smoker as of now...for the moment. I quit yesterday (kind of, I cheated and smoked 2) I smoke alot, so as you can imagine I am quite insane at the moment! Ill keep everyone posted as to how it goes...and then maybe share my trick! (lots of sex all the time)

Ok, time to go clean, eat, clean, eat, clean, homework, clean, eat....im sure without smoking that is what my day will consist of for awhile.


Quote of the day: "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." -Confucious

Freinds

What makes me happy today are freinds. I so enjoy meeting new people! I sometimes think I'm not all that social, but then when I get in a social situation I love it.

I got a kitty today!! I havent given him a name yet, Im waiting for help from someone on that. But he is an unusual cat, looks almost like a bobcat. He is HUGE for as young as he is..so I think he will be a big cat. He is sooo sweet and nice though. Just curls up on my lap and purrs and rubs under my chin.

Im happy today for company!! Yay for the kitty, whatever his name may be!!

Daisys

Im so cold and freezing and cold and freezing.... So Im at the grocery store last night and I see this HUGE bouquet of daisys. Needless to say, I of course could not pass them up. Sitting here right now, they are reminding me of spring...hurry hurry spring, this winter shit is killing me!

I was finally able to get some good sleep the last two nights, unfortunately only due to the fact that I am very sick. I dont like being sick, so I sleep it away. Now Im sitting here wishing I were sleeping again..haha I was reading an article about what your body needs sleep for, and I guess they just figured out very recently its supposed purpose. It is NOT for muscle regrowth or anything really physical. They are saying it is like a recycling bin, stores and deletes memories that have built up in your brain. And is important for information retention. I thought that was interesting, considering I dont sleep alot and can sometimes not remember my own name. haha

Well..damn..forgot what I was going to say.

Quote of the day:

"The lady doth protest too much, methinks." William Shakespear

damn I bitch alot

I was just laughing at myself...I got my cell phone today, and im already swearing at it. Damn cell phones. I HATE them. Why the hell did I get this again????? BAHHHHH

Oh well. I will deal with it and learn to love it as much as the rest of the world seems to. Im usually more technologically advanced...however..I also enjoy my privacy. So the thought of having a phone ringing with me EVERYWHERE I go kind of turns me off. I dont understand why people love them so much...really.

Im off to do MORE school work, because that is all I seem to do anymore, and Im lost without it (yeah right).

I cant say no

I have this problem. I find it hard to say no to people. For example...getting often roped into watching my nephews when I REALLY would rather not. OR more recently, helping some friends paint their new house when I have been sick and just want to lay on the couch. Tonight I actually said no. Mostly because Im so drained from being sick, but I STILL felt horrible saying no.

Why is this?? I dont understand! I guess I am too much of a people pleaser. I like for everyone around me to be happy. I take everything way to personally, like it is my mission to make everyone around me happy. It would be nice if i could at least get paid for it. Hehee

Soooo.. Sex comment now. I was just realizing how much the act of having sex is soooo different with emotions involved. I know, I know...where the hell have I been that Im just thinking about this now at my age...hehee. But its not that I didnt know this already, its just been awhile since Ive had emotional sex. And I wonder always why I end up giving in to my urges and having the non emotional kind. I actually find it kind of boring. (Im odd, like you didnt know this already) Sooooo I have decided to commit to not having non emotional sex anymore. It isnt worth it.


Quote of the Day: "Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance." Oscar Wilde