Wrong
Belief.
I lost myself in it. Drowned in it almost.
I am so drained. Is it like that story? The boy who
cried wolf? I guess I dont know anymore. So much is
"going" to happen. If I just "wait". Im sick of waiting.
Am I wrong? Am I selfish?
How can something grow, when the room for it
the next step, the need....god the need, is squashed.
Not once.
It seems like always.
I dont want to be upset. I cant help it. I am.
Who knows, who really knows who is at fault. Maybe its me.
Right now its me.
I will be more cautious. I promise I will. I promise.
And as long as I close off a little part of me, it wont hurt so much next time.
Right?
Back to that again.
Fuck.
I lost myself in it. Drowned in it almost.
I am so drained. Is it like that story? The boy who
cried wolf? I guess I dont know anymore. So much is
"going" to happen. If I just "wait". Im sick of waiting.
Am I wrong? Am I selfish?
How can something grow, when the room for it
the next step, the need....god the need, is squashed.
Not once.
It seems like always.
I dont want to be upset. I cant help it. I am.
Who knows, who really knows who is at fault. Maybe its me.
Right now its me.
I will be more cautious. I promise I will. I promise.
And as long as I close off a little part of me, it wont hurt so much next time.
Right?
Back to that again.
Fuck.
posted by TheManagement at 7:01 AM
2 Comments:
*sigh* don't close off...it makes it worse in the long run. i hope things get better for you soon...
That Girl is right. Its the risk of relationships and you can't enjoy one unless you are willing to give oh yourself somewhat. The ying/yang is pleasure/pain.
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